Time really flies huh. It's the third week of June hols already!
It feels like the first week :/
Maybe cus I fell really ill twice during the June hols. Fever went up to 39.8 degrees!
Seriously the first time that my temperature has gone up so high.
So I wasted the first two weeks of my hols away just like that.
Havent done much studying cus ive been sick, slacking and going out.
Yup, totally GGfied for mid years I know.
Just gonna update abt my clique outing :)
It was really AWESOME! We went to KBOX and had dinner at Pastamania :D
I thought I wouldnt sing at all, cus singing just aint my thing haha, esp infront of my friends.
But in the end, although I didnt sing into the mike, I totally sang damn loudly together w my friends and we got damnnnnn high!
The room beside ours had their volume on way toooo high, so we challenged them back by doing the same :)
So all of us were jumping arnd and singing (or rather, shouting) together during every song :D
I really appreciate how ON and HIGH my clique can be :)
Hope more of such awesome outings come by sooon heh.
Picture time to intro my clique and twinnnn! :D
(The rest of the pics are in fb as usual lol)
CLIQUE ♥
Twin :)
Well, the story behind why we're twins is that.........
She's YUANzhan and im YUANhui.
Both our birthdays are on AUGUST :)
& We just have quite alot in common at times heh.
Somehow, we click quite well too! So yeah, 'twin' just came about naturally after some time haha.
Our clique even calls us 'The Yuan Sisters'! z (Inside joke).
S10 & clique often shout 'yuan' just to get both of us to turn back at the same time lol.
Gets pretty annoying at times, but its hilarious too!
Ah, clique was supposed to OOVOO together!! But some of us didnt have webcam, while some others werent enthu :(
Guess who were the ones left who had webcam + were enthu........?
Tadahhhhh. The remaining two geeks w centre parting lor! :)
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& as some ppl already know, I finally picked up the courage to put on braces.
Yeahhhh my clique cant wait to see me, cus my name is 'ahlian' in the group.
& They claim tht they have never seen an ahlian wear braces before -.-
So im so inferiorrrrrrr and scared to let them see me now! So ive been a cavewoman ever since I had em on unless I had no choice but to go out.
& yes it does hurtttttt, but im getting used to it :)
Time to get back to studyingggggggg sigh.
Till the next time I update again, tata :)
♥ 7:13 PM
Mummy, I truly hope you've learnt your mistake.
Yes, we can still sense tht youre not really telling the truth.
But we have decided to let everything go.
You have no idea how badly you've hurt the whole family, especially Dad.
Seeing the whole family cry....... Grandma, dad, even bro, and of course, myself, as well as you, hurts me so so much.
Cus such an unfortunate thing like seeing the whole family cry, has never happened before.
Im extremely hurt...... deep down. I just didnt show it.
I still act like im alright, cus I dont want to make things worse for the both of you.
Yes, bro is hurt as well, but can he ever understand, or feel the amount of pain like I do?
Knowing that your own Dad doubt whether youre his real child........
& the fact that this suspicion, came directly from his mouth, to my ears?
The moment he said this,
'Pardon me, but I really doubt whether youre my child. So I blurted it out to your Mum. Im sorry.'
I tried to act strong when he told me about what you did, Mum.
But aft he said that, it was too much. Too much for me to handle.
The moment I knew abt the contents of this matter, together w the suspicion of whether im Dad's real child, I broke down.
I was two years old, mum.
When Dad made us look through the photos when I was two, and bro was five, I just had to cry.
Cus we were so young and innocent, we were so happy as a family...
How could you have done that? How could you bear to even do that?
Honestly, im so afraid that even up till now, you've not learnt your mistake.
I still doubt you, and pray so hard that im wrong.
Cus if its really true......... I'd be so hurt that I wont be able to forgive you again.
I tell myself everyday, that I need to trust you.
I hope you dont ever betray this trust again, Mum.
Sigh. This period will definitely be the hardest for both you and Dad.
But I really hope time can heal Dad's wounds and that we'll be a family again.
I know you two are staying together just to allow the family to be as one, as what Bro and I had wanted.
But both of us aint happy, cus we know this family... Isnt a family anymore.
& That you two are just together on the surface, for the sake of us.
So...
God, please let Dad's scar heal asap and please guide my mum, and not let her do anything foolish anymore. Amen.
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♥ 5:39 PM
