Yesterday was just seriously one of the worst days ever.
Diarrhea & Flu in the Morn yet I had t-t comps, almost fell thrice, saw smth that hurt me to the max.
It really was tough to handle my emotions yesterday.
I dont knw hw to explain the amt of guilt I feel, nor do I knw how to express how sorry I am.
Team, I really am deeply sorry, and im really so grateful and thankful for your concern and support.
Though I know we blew it up, y'all still gave us the utmost amt of care and concern.
I thought I wouldnt be that attached to the team yet, cus afterall im still new here.
But aft seeing how we supported each other, I just have to say,
TPJC tabletennis FTW, 100%.
Thankyou & sorry team. x Infinity.
Those ppl who are close to me shld alr knw what was the other thing tht rly upset me so much.
I was truly shocked and disappointed. And, I feel maligned.
It's like, I was given the death penalty without knowing the crime I commited.
I even plead for mercy though I had no clue what was going on.
But when I saw those scenes, oh damnit.
I swear I take back those words abt 'pleading for mercy'.
They were right.
I dont deserve such treatment.
And at least I saw the truth at the end of the day.
You dont treasure this, neither will I.
I treasured this so fucking much, so damn much.
But this was just trash to the other party.
I nvr expected such behaviour frm y'all, ever.
But you surprised me, really did.
And yes, I was indeed that fucking hurt.
But again, at least I saw the truth at the end of the day.
& I dont even wanna bother abt anyth tht has to do w y'all ever again.
Cus y'all dont even deserve it aft how I was treated.
Concluded that yesterday really was the worst or one of the worst breakdowns ever.
But I got slightly better, cause of the fellow TPJC-ians.
Im grateful for all the friends and teammates that I have in TPJC.
I can tell they truly care about me.
When im upset, they constantly try to cheer me up and make sure I get some attention and their fullest support at all times.
It really was a blessing in disguise to come to this school ♥
♥ 12:18 AM
TPJC CAMP EMPOWER 2010 ; An event I'll never ever forget.
(Pics are not w me, so gna be a wordy post AGAIN sorry!)
This camp reallllllly brought my class, which is S10, together.
By the end of the camp, we really bonded so much.
And of cus, this couldnt be achieved without the help of our super awesome J2 CFs(camp facilitators)
I wont go into detail about the 3D2N camp.
In overall, we had teambuilding (Games, cheers etc), Amazing Race, Couple Dance & Mass Dance, Soul Night (Performances by students, our very own band, dance, cheers) and a taste of YOG games.
I enjoyed EVERY single activity.
Teambuilding was awesome cus my class cheered really loudly most of the time, such that we got complimented as the 'class who had the best cheer' during Amazing race.
Im so proud of S10 :)
Amazing race alone was awesome as well, due to the best team anyone can ever wish for :)
We did cheers at different points of time to keep the class spirit going, and most of us were adventurous in doing the obstacles :D
Glad to say, it honestly felt like I was experiencing the real Amazing Race.
Couple dance was not bad as well, paired up w a guy classmate and he's quite a good dancer.
Enjoyed the experience & the dance is nice :)
Ah, I ENJOYED EVERYTHING LAH!
Our CFs passed down their house cheers to us, which is Hawk house.
They want us to pass those cheers down to the next batch, and im sure we'll do that :D
Im really so grateful that we had that class spirit within each and every one of us during the camp.
I hope this spirit will last :D
Aft the camp, S10 was still hanging arnd in sch and cheering like happy teens cus our cheers are just so catchy.
Be it class cheer or Hawk cheers, all are equally awesome :D
Had lunch at Popeyes w S10 & CFs aft camp!
Never felt so bonded to a class before. And I've nvr been so touched and happy, to be able to experience a team/class cheer so loud & to cheer their heart out as one.
S10 & fellow Hawk-ers all the way! :D
Putting that aside, the one week holidays is definitely not enough :/
Three days trng a week, and four subjects of CA1 after hols, together w homework.
CA1 didnt mean anything in the past.
But now, it contributes slightly to our Promotional Exams.
So this small percentage might just help us promote to J2.
& I needa try to study as much as I can this hols cus I'll be missing lessons due to A Div comps :(
(& Im not exactly smart so yeah-.-)
Ironically, I've not been studying/doing my homework..............
On a lighter note, at least I get to meet P.SANDAL tmr for dinner and maybe Dy & Jk for supper :)
And also S10 & CFs on Friday for class outing! :D
Gotta go to bed, training tmrrrrrrr.
Tata! :D
Labels: S10 and Hawk
♥ 10:47 PM
Back pain every single trng.
But I dont wna tell them cus I dont want them to pity me and let me rest,
cus they need me and I wna play my part well ; I wna put in that amt of effort that im supposed to put in, for them.
Yet, at the same time, it's so tough tolerating the pain and acting like im totally fine.
Im always at the bench outside of the tabletennis room when I have a break during trng.
Cus that's when Im alone, that's when I dont have to pretend im fine.
My teammates must be wondering why im such an emo kid.
And im always lying that it's cus it's too hot in the room.
I rather let them think im emo and a loner, than to let them know the truth.
Sometimes it's just so tough to fake this.
And no, I did not write this post cus im emo or I want sympathy.
I wrote this cus it bothers me, and I like to write it out when smth bothers me.
As simple as that.
Andddd, I know I have a scary-looking face that probably offends everyone upon the first sight.
Im tired and unhappy of hearing that, though I knw its the truth.
But it's not like I can decide how I look.
Im ugly, and im just scary-looking. You think I wanna look like that?
So PLEASE, get to know me, or approach and talk to me, before you decide to craft that negative impression of me.
If after talking to me, you still wna have that negative impression, then so be it :)
Cus at least you dont "judge a book by its cover"
Really appreciate that, thankyou.
(So formal I know. But its cus this is so serious and significant to me.)
Goodbye.
♥ 9:27 PM
